Who needs sleep?

Is anyone else really tired?

I can't seem to sleep. I go to bed. I lay there. I'm sure I must sleep but it never feels as though I am rested. I have never been a good sleeper. My brain is always going. Either I am going over the day I just had, and reliving every moment, and imagining what I could have done better. Or I am planning the next day. Or I am making plans for things I am never going to do. And on those special nights remembering any number of missteps I made in the past. It could be last week. It could be from grade eight.

I have done all the things. I try to go to bed at the same time every night and get up at the same time every morning. My room is super dark. I have blackout curtains on every window. I keep my room cool and I change my sheets often. I don't drink coffee at all. I have a pop with supper and that is it. 

I am beginning to think there is more going on than just bad sleep. It feels like more than that. In my bones I am fatigued. I have a feeling like maybe we are all going through some level of this. For a while, I thought it was too much news, too much bad news. So I stopped watching the news. Then I thought it was just all the anger over our current situation. So I started avoiding people. And if somehow I was around people spouting negativity I would try to change the subject. If that didn't work I would just walk away. Still no sleep. I still don't feel rested. 

Now that I am actively thinking about it, maybe we collectively just need a break. I don't know how to go about this. And that answer doesn't help. If I come up with something that works, I will let you know. If you have something that works. Please let me know. 


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