Over Thinker? Me? Never.

As always the loss of a loved one I have a tendency to get a little philosophical.

Honestly though, when do I not have the tendency to get a little philosophical? If overthinking were an Olympic sport, I would win gold, silver, and bronze. I am one of those who assume I am a burden to people. That I am somehow too much and not enough at the same time. 

I spend a lot of time in my own head and try to censor what I say before it leaves my mouth. I usually fail at the censoring part. I am overly emotional and work constantly on keeping that choked down. Which doesn't really work either. 

I treasure the people in my life and I hope they know it. I also fall off the face of the earth from time to time and forget that part of being in someone's life means that you have to maintain communication. I only speak (ok text) to most of my closest friends every couple of months. 

I do think of the people in my life all the time. I hope they are well and know that if they need me I am always here for them. I want only the best for them and know that they are worth far more than they think they are. 

So when I lose someone, I am not always sad for them. If they were sick no matter what that means to them, I am glad they don't have to suffer anymore. I am sad for me. I am sad that I will never get to spend time with them again. Not share a laugh or an eye roll. Did they know what they meant to me? I am working on getting better at letting people know that they are important to me. 

Currently, we are all apart. Physically. Mentally though we are all together. 

Song of the day:

God Put a Smile on Your Face by Mark Ronson feat. the Dap Horns is a funkier cover of a Coldplay song. I prefer this version because of the horns and the high-energy tempo. The original was released on Canada Day in 2003. This version was released in 2007 as part of an all-cover album from Produce Mark Ronson. Mark Ronson is a superstar producer who has worked with most of the large musicians of right now. His Stepdad, Mick Jones, is the bassist for the band foreigner, and his mother-in-law is Meryl Streep.